Well, isn't this just everything I thought would happen.

There be slight spoilers under this here cut for the season finale of Doctor Who, so ye be warned.

Current Mood: melancholy

Allo.

I have a lump.

A lump, you say?

Yes, a lump.

And the doc said it's probably not cancer, but I have to go have a CT scan anyway, just in case. She said it's probably a cyst or a calcium growth or something. Which is good. Cancer would be not good. Not good in any sense of the word.

And guys, btw, if you ever move to Canada and get sick, FLY HOME. The system here is worse than the NHS, and I'm PAYING for it.

Three months for a CT scan? Fuck that, I'm running back to bupa.

Get to go home next week too, which is awesome, as I finally get to see my boyfriend and my cat again. Can't wait to snuggle up on the couch with him and watch tv. Oh, and the boyfriend too. :D

And I get to have REAL FOOD! Not this Canadian shit I have to deal with. Dear god, the amounts of additives in their food is insane. It's like walking into a big sugar rush every time I go to Safeway.

But I get bangers and mash and spaghetti on toast and Lloyd Grossman pasta sauce and chip shop chips :D

Gonna be a hell of a holiday. Might be a slight bit porky when I get back. :S

Current Location: BC

The 'No Lying Quiz'

EIGHT Lasts...

8. last time you kissed someone?: March 5th. On someones birthday :P

7. last beverage: Orange Juice

6. last phone call: My mum.

5. last text message: Fucking hell, probably one from back in England

4. last cd played: I don't own CDs! Mwah ha ha! Beat you at this question, didn't I?!

3. last BUBBLE bath: A proper one? Probably at home in England or at Mike's. God I miss that bath.

2. last time you cried: Watching Four Weddings the other night.

1. last snack: M&Ms

SEVEN have you's...

7. have you ever dated someone twice?: No.

6. have you ever been cheated on?: Erm, define cheating? Considering we weren't going out at the time, I'd have to say no.

5. have you ever kissed someone & regretted it?: Yup.

4. have you ever thought you had fallen in love?: Yuppy.

3. have you ever lost someone special?: Mattie.

2. have you ever been depressed? A little last year. Hence the weight loss

1. have you ever been drunk and thrown up?: OOOh yes. But I was 16, and cider wasn't a good idea.


SIX favourite people to talk to (in no particular order):

Ooh that's a bit tricky
In no particular order..

1. Mike
2. Ayla
3. Mum
4. Dad
5. Hannah
6. Duncan cuz he makes me laugh.

SIX things you did in the past three days:

6. Missed a class. Stupid napping!
5. went to the gym every day
4. Saw 300!!
3. Watched a girly move with a boy. It was so funny.
2. Ate a bagel.
1. Wanted coke soooooo badly.

FOUR places you have been on vacation:

4. Canada
3. Ireland
2. Australia
1. Amsterdam

List THREE favorite colors.

3. blue
2. Green
1. Black

List TWO things you love to do.

2. Sex
1. Sex again.

This month have you...

- Fallen out of love: Most definitely not
- Laughed until you cried: Not that I can think of.
- Let someone change your life: Erm, I'll get back to you?
- Found out who your true friends were: Knew that one.


If you answered honestly to all these, repost as:
"No Lying Quiz"

Tags: meme
Current Location: BC
Current Music: LotR

Ok, I'm really hoping he's given up reading this, because I can't find the "make post private" button that was oh so shineh, and I don't want him to a) worry, or b) roll his eyes.

I'm a little bit worried, to be very honest with you. I'm eating right (for once in my life), and I'm getting enough sleep, and I'm not sat around on my bum all day, I'm doing bits of exercise. And I'm STILL dizzy.

And I'm sat here in my Macro class, wondering if it's all the numbers that are making me dizzy. I've had a cookie, because I thought I needed sugar, but that didn't work. And I'm totally spazzing out right now.

:(

Plus, that lump on the back of my head's still there. That can't be normal.

Wow. I can't describe it. It's amazing.

I am totally, and completely in love.

And it's wonderful.

And sometimes I'll think about it, and my heart will beat faster, I'll lose my breath, and, just for the briefest second, the world will stop. And I'll realise how lucky I am.

I honestly didn't think this would ever happen to me. It was always a case of me loving but never getting anything in return. Always the one chasing, but never getting very far.

But now, everything's brand new. It's a bright, wonderful new world, and I can't wait to live in it.

Tags: love

Forgive the spam, I still can't use the cut tool on the upload page.

2006 Survey:


1. Overall, have you had a good year?
Think so, yeah. A lot's happened.

2. What has been your biggest achievement?
Getting into FIC. Even if I didn't get into SFU.

3. Did you take any exams, Pass?
Yes. And, erm...no.

4. Have you had your birthday yet?
Indeed.

5. Have you been on Holiday?
Am right now. :D

6. Where (list and when)
Canada, Australia, Carribean.

7. Have you bought anything expensive?
Well the holidays weren't cheap.

8. Have you had a job?
Austin Reed. Gotta hate it.

9. Made any big decisions?
Lots of 'em.

10. Lost a friend or loved one?
Yes.

11. Met anyone amazing?
Jenneh. Yeh can only be described as amazing.

12. Made new friends?
Quite a few, and I'm not really good at that sort of thing.

13. Moved house?
Ooooooh yes.

14. Changed College?
Erm, if it's in January does that count?

15. Tried something new?
Sex, sex was a big one.

16. Been more happy or sad?
Happy I think, but I've had some low points.

17. Made any enemies?
Apart from Bush? No. But he knows I hate him anyway, so it's all good.

18. What music will you remember from this year?
Wicked, innit?

19. What movies have you seen at the cinema this year?
Erm, Da Vinci Code sticks out.

20. What was your best night out?
Erm. Ayla's leaving thing, probably.

21. What was your worst night out?
I don't think I had a really bad one.

22. Best Day?
My Birthday.

23. Worst day?
The day I came back from Vancouver the second time.

24. Best month?
August/September

25. Worst month?
April/May.

26. Was summer a good'n?
Pretty good, yeah. Wouldn't say the best.

27. Have you made better friends with anyone?
Probably, yes.

28. Lost any friends?
Lots.

29. How many people have you kissed in the year of 2006?
Four. One quite a bit more than the others

31. Did you have your heart broken?
Yup. Lots.

32. Made any plans for next year?
SCHOOL!!

33.How many hair colours have you had?
Three. All brown.

34. Got pierced?
Nope.

35. Got inked?
Ouch, no.

36. Changed your image?
A little.

37. Missed anyone?
Yeah.

38. Enjoying this survey?
More than the fact that the boat's currently trying to rock me violently to sleep. :S

39. Know what you want in the future?
I do, but if I tell you it won't come true.

40. Regret anything?
Lots. But if I hadn't done them I wouldn't be where I am today, which is a nice place.

Current weight: 8st 4.6.

I don't know how I feel right now. I've been accused of lying about something I'd never lie about because it would damage my relationship and make me look like a vicious, manipulative bitch. Which it has.

I feel numb, I really do. Half of me thinks I should go round and explain myself, but then I know I'm too angry to do that. And the other half seriously wants me to consider breaking up with him to make everything a little easier.

I love Soph to bits. I'd never make up anything like that so hurt either her or Mike. She's been a really good friend to me over the past few months, seeing as she's one of the few friends I have left. And lets not forget, we were both very drunk. I doubt she even knew what she was saying to me, but she said it nontheless.

You see, anything I say now? I lose. I'll look like the bad guy. Anything she says now? She wins. Because as far as he's concerned, I'm the bad guy.

Oh fuck it. As far as you're concerned, I'm the bad guy, aren't I? I would never lie to you about something like that. You asked me what was wrong, and probably would have pestered me to tell you anyway. And if I had lied and made something up you'd have seen through it. So what was I supposed to do, Mike? Please tell me, because I don't like being accused of being a liar. Especially by the one person who means the most to me.

I just wish Ayla was here.

Tags: heartbreak
Current Mood: angry

8st 3.4

Getting better. Still not there though.

Current weight: 8st 5

Well at least I'm consistent around the eight and a half spot.

:D

Current Weight: 8st 3.8.

How do I drop five pounds in a night without medical intervention?

:S